Hello, first post here. 18 Years old, from North England, nice to meet you all ( Read more... )

perhaps i am scared of abilify...
perhaps i am not suffering a true side effect at all - or at least not one of the medication itself.
perhaps i am freaking myself into some stupid-anxious tizzy; one that would not exist if i had control of my brain.

last night i took the first 2mg dose of abilify - first time taking it since july 0f 2008 and ( Read more... )

I'm used to saying I have social anxiety, general anxiety, depression, mania, bipolar 1 disorder... But lately I'm feeling something a little more than anxiety, I think.  It's this touch of paranoia.  I threw out all my weed :-)  And I don't have any booze in the house.  I would hate to add to my paranoia and depression by continuing to self- ( Read more... )

X-posted to my private journal ( Read more... )

My name is kevon..I am dx with bipolar 1. I have been taking zyprexa for over two years now with, suprisingly,very little weight gain from it. It works to tame the mania and keep a stable mood. The other meds I take are wellbutrin, rozerem, and vistaril, and ativan. I'm also a recovering addict and that's where my problem comes in: My parents are ( Read more... )

So, pretty much everything that I brag about going well lately is really being overshadowed by my severe and intensely intrusive depression that just WILL NOT go away.

I ended up breaking down and crying uncontrollably twice yesterday for no reason and was fighting tears all day. I was trying not to cry, but it just was not working. I cried because ( Read more... )

I have bipolar 1 disorder with some psychotic tendencies. At least, that's what my quack says ( Read more... )